The Lockdown

Like millions of other people around the world we're on lockdown day...who the hell knows anymore. Because of James we locked down earlier than we were required to, but it was what we needed to do. And trying to make it all work has been one of the hardest things I've ever done. Its no joke to work a demanding job with kids at home, balance taking care of them, cleaning, cooking (we don't even get take out) and working. For us there is no enjoy the extra family time or the simpler, slower life. We're getting through it one day at a time, but the mama guilt is real. And James has probably the most amazing rockstar teachers you could imagine. His gen ed teacher meets with him every morning to kick off his day. His paras meet with him 1:1 throughout the day and his special ed teacher modifies his work and slide shows for him every day so he can be successful. And then there are his girlfriends who call daily. Everyone is looking out for this kid and it really makes this mama happy! I couldn't ask to be locked down in a more amazing community.

But all that means running has not just taken a backseat but basically just fallen off almost completely. Its such a little thing, but I find myself almost wishing my big races would get cancelled since the reality is I won't be able to train for them. Before the lockdown I had been running stronger than I ever had. My training was going well, it was ramping up and my confidence was there. Overnight that stopped. The reality is there will be no long runs until these kids get back to school or some sort.

The positive is that I had already formulated a backup plan. If I've learned anything in the past couple years its that life pretty much never works out the way you plan...so have a backup. My backup with to quietly register for Run Rabbit again. And if that race can actually go...and Dan and I can figure out a way for both of us to run it I will be ready and fired up to get after it in my home mountains. If High Lonesome goes I will absolutely toe that line. I won't be as prepared as I want to be for that race. So I've adjusted my expectations and will enjoy my time out there. I'll enjoy a course I've never been on and try to get used to the way races will going forward...however that may look.

Overnight it seemed our lives changed. One day at a time we'll get through this and be stronger on the other side for it. Be safe out there and be smart with your running!

our COVID impulse buy was a bounce house...
because yes its still snowing and the kids need something to get their energy out!